Basketball Jones

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xiBR6NC8pT4&feature=relatedSo Schools officially over and as the academic challenges cease, I find myself faced with new obstacles on the horizon.This summer I have a few things to accomplish but I find myself approaching a crossroad in my life. I recently had a friend ask me if I wanted to play in a Pro Am Summer League back home in New Jersey. Now for those of you who aren't familiar with it, the Pro Am is a Summer basketball league where some of the best high school, college, overseas and even International players play to improve their game. I'm in no way intimidated by the competition, I just don't know whether or not I have the same love or passion for the game as I used too.
And yes I was another NBA hopeful in high school that had dreams of making it big.I was 17 then. I'm 20 years old now and I've been so accustom to playing school boy, I've forgotten what it feels like to really enjoy the game. I've also been praying that if Basketball is not in God's plan for my life, that he take the desire away from me. This may sound bitter but this is how I honestly feel; I've watched so many of my friends make it with their basketball goals that I've grown tired of working out and trying to improve my game. I feel that I lost that strong sense of motivation. I believe a lot of that has to do with the fact that I'm out of shape and I need to work on my game. Did I mention that the tournament starts at the end of June?

I'm usually pretty reasonable with myself when it comes to accepting things that aren't for me. But I just don't know why I can't let go my love for the game. It almost feels like I'm incomplete until I get to play again someday. Oh well, we'll see where this goes. I guess this is the time when I must be patient. I'm very picky with my patience and yes I know, I shouldn't be.