The mind of a young person

I often think that college is the time where we seem to do the most thinking about our future....As a young college student and aspiring Lawyer, I often drift off into deep thought about my goals, aspirations and future endeavors. At times I get mad at myself for not fulfilling my true potential and not stepping outside the shadows of shyness and modesty. But its hard because life has a way of making sudden changes and alternatives routes that you didn't expect to take. For example, I wanted to transfer to VCU for this Fall Semester but life had other plans for me here at Virginia State, so I decided to stay. I felt that VCU could open up a better venue of opportunities but I realized that wherever God decides to bless you, it doesn't matter where you are, it only matters in that which lies in your inner ability. So with that being said, I'm learning to stir up the gifts that I was blessed with and strive to make the best of them in my tenure at Virginia State. If there's one thing I've learned most through life's experiences, its learning to take "risks". That's inclusive to love, relationships, goals, dreams, internships etc. When I  first came to Virginia it didn't dawn on me until my mom and cousins dropped me off that I was almost 7 hours away from home with no family or friends. I was a Freshman at the time, youngest child and a mommas boy (still a mommas boy lol). But I learned to have faith and to make my family proud. And I am confident in saying that I have been doing just that since I've been here at Virginia State.

       Those are some thoughts of a young person...now lets talk about "helpless romantics". I'm sure we've all came across the thoughts of meeting our "potential mate" in college. Only problem is, if we're meant to meet that person, how are we going to be able to do so if we're constantly distracted by meaningless people who we so passionately cater our time to. That was the most proper and clean way I could say that but if you have half a brain then you know what I'm trying to say lol. One thing I'll never forget is something someone tweeted the other day. They said "Don't go looking for love, let love find you". Patience is a very tough virtue to have but is something we all must inquire in order to maintain some forms of cleanliness until we meet that potential one. Now I'm not suggesting anyone to be the purest fruit in the tree (lol which isn't bad) but to at least hold yourself together until that right one comes into your sight. What better feeling could one experience then the one of someone that won't hurt them?. Deep right?
Also, for those of you who are currently dating, if you have any detrimental doubts about your significant other, chances are, you aren't meant to be!(at least for now) sucks right? I know.

Although I may write blogs about love, I don't really search for it. anymore at least. I've just come to accept the fact that if it's meant to happen then it'll happen. Often times men tend to lose their value but I'm learning to hold on to mine. Now I know I'm not the most charming or perfect guy, but I hate having the feeling that many girls believe that guys like me are too good to be true; therefore we don't exist in their eyes. Subsequently, they settle for less and are left damaged and unhappy...(Same thing with guys). Sometimes I wonder though, how can't women see guys like me? I often get asked the question "why are you single? I mean, your intelligent, cool, funny, understanding, protective, not too emotional but you open up, don't speak too much but when you do its meaningful, your an attractive guy" etc My reply is simple; "I'm just focusing on uplifting myself and getting my degree and becoming a lawyer so I could take care of my mom and family. I don't feel bitter towards love, I'm just not as prepared to give love to someone else at this point in my life". There's a lot of things I want to do in life such as help people, travel the world, build my resume and become a humanitarian (believe it or not). And to be honest, I don't think I've met someone that's for me as of now...But  I believe when I do, I'll feel it inside and I'll know. But for now, there's a lot of work to be done and I hope to make the best of it while I'm still here.
I kind of feel hidden from the world to a certain degree, and I feel that one day I'm going to be able to show that potential to the world and it'll be in awe. I just hope that I can help maintain humility, fidelity, unity  and peace in the process of doing so. And if that one comes then it comes, if not, I hope that I can at least live with the satisfaction that I made the best of my life and lived it the right way; and helped my family and friends and people in need along the way.